Well, that's a good damn question. I used to think I had the answer to that but over the years, that answer has definitely changed. My answer used to consist of other people and their opinions, who I was depended on who needed me at the moment. I wanted everyone else to be happy and to approve of my life so much, that it caused a lot of personal conflict. Ended up dating more than a few Mr. Wrong's, moved around a lot, gained friends then lost them, ups and downs with family, went through a deep depression, then I said "enough is enough". Most people who have a "slap yourself" moment, they do so to remind themselves of who they are to get out of the rut they're in. In this case, I had to slap myself to open my eyes to the real me, I had to rid myself of the fear of not being good enough. Once I did that and embraced Meek, with no hesitation and no question, my quality of life began to improve drastically.
I was born in San Bernardino, California and lived in San Diego until I graduated High school in 2003. (Yes that makes me 32. lol) I moved from San Diego to Houston Texas to attend Prairie View A&M University, and I experienced a HUGE culture shock. Going from a predominantly white high school to an all black HBCU...talk about adjustment....a much needed one though. I fell in love with H-Town and it became home for me. A few years passed and I found myself missing the mark, not feeling fulfilled or accomplished in my life. Why? Because I was doing things that I thought would make other people happy instead of finding and doing what made me happy. When I did not receive the acknowledgement or praise that I expected from certain people, I would feel as though I had failed. "Well I did 'x' I just knew they would be happy about that..." but unfortunately, pleasing people is a never ending battle.
Most recently I relocated to the Dallas area from Houston. At the tender age of 31, I finally said, "It's Me Time" and meant it. I am no longer seeking approval from anyone in any way. I am strictly doing what makes me happy. I have always loved getting out and discovering things but i have felt more of an urge to do so since I relocated. On my journey now I find myself doing things I have never done before, saying things I was too afraid of saying and everyday, being the person I thought I could only be in my dreams. It is so unreal. Allowing myself to be free in all aspects of my life is the ultimate goal, that is the journey that I am on. It is not a smooth or easy journey by any means and since I know that I am not the only one who is on this same journey, I wanted to share mine to encourage, enlighten and engage.
In Dallas (and surrounding areas) there is so much to explore and share! I plan on getting out and sharing the best restaurants, museums, venues, bars, social events and maybe even planning a few social events of my own! As much as I love Texas, I enjoy a change of scenery as well! So I will be sure to share the best travel deals, vacation destinations, my different experiences with different cultures and fashion from around the world and so much more!!
Thank you for the opportunity to connect with you! There is so much life out there and I want you and I to live all of it!!
Love,
Meek
